Pregnancy Vent

I feel the need to vent and since this is my blog I guess I have the right to do it here.

Lately all these pregnancy hormones have really been getting to me. I'm happy one minute and the next minute I'm bawling for no reason. The worst part is that it's so hard to make yourself stop when there's really no reason that you started. Today I went for a drive to clear my head and all it really did was make me think about every emotion I'm feeling.

Sometimes I feel lonely. I don't know why because I live with 4 other people, I have great friends at work and my weekends usually consist of spending a lot of time with my friends. I think a lot of it right now has to do with the fact that I'm pregnant and I only get to see my boyfriend once a week. It's hard having a bond like a child and wanting to share every moment of my pregnancy with him and I can't. And on top of that he is so busy working right now to save for the baby that it's really hard to talk to him a lot on the days we aren't together.

Another thing that has just been getting to me a lot is not feeling needed. A lot of things in my past have caused me to lose a lot of my ability to trust. I have a hard time trusting that people aren't going to just up and leave me especially when times get hard. I can't wait until my daughter is born because I know that she will need me and love me just as much as I love her.

Right now I'm just taking it day by day. My life is very good and i don't want this to seem like a woe me post I just needed to get some things off of my chest.

Thanks for listening or reading I should say. Hope you guys all had a great weekend. I think I need to get some rest.

Poached Eggs?

Hey guys! Happy super duper Friday!! I love that I can lay in bed and blog. How fun =)

Anyways I was wondering if anyone has had poached eggs before. Are they any good? Are they worth the extra cook time? I'm trying to find some creative meals that might help me stay fuller longer and I was thinking maybe poached eggs and a bowl of fruit for breakfast.

What do you guys think? Any other suggestions for some good breakfast foods?

Have a wonderful weekend!! I'm counting down the days until I can rejoin the weight loss/fitness world =)

Testing 123...

Hey guys! I bought myself an iPhone! Very excited about that especially since it will be much easier for me to post and put comments on all of your guys' blogs. Woo hoo! Anyways this is just a post to make sure the app I got works lol

Hope you are all having a wonderful day, tomorrows Friday!!

Wow Really?

Wow, I can't belive I haven't posted since March. Time sure flies!! I decided since I'm not doing anything on this gloomy Saturday that I'll take some time to update my blog and all of you guys on what's been going on. I'm updating my 'weight' column on the side of my blog because I have gained weight. I know that it's obviously because of my pregnancy but that doesn't mean I won't have to lose it again once the baby comes so I'm including it in that column. I will also take some photos of my blossoming belly for you all to see!

I will be 26 weeks pregnant on Tuesday and I can't belive that my little peanut will be here in a little over 3 months! It's craaaaazy to think about. We found out that we're having a little girl! :-) We're both very excited about that even though my boyfriend wanted a boy at first. Of course he is fine with either one as long as she's healthy. The name we have picked out is Kaliya (kuh-lee-uh) but that could change by August.

As crazy as it sounds I'm really really ready to get back into exercising. I walk on a daily basis and we're doing a wellness challenge at work to see how many steps you can walk daily. My average so far is about 6500 steps. Although walking is a great way to exercise, especially for me right now, I really want to get back in the gym and lift weights and bike hard intervals on the exercise bike. I also have been reading about people who do "stair climbing". Basically they have events around the country similar to 5K's and half marathons and triathalons except instead of running or walking you climb flights of stairs in tall buildings. I don't know why but something about this really intrigues me. Maybe because I know it's such a tough thing to do and I'm ready for a good challenge to get me into shape. Anyways, I'm excited to have this baby and start exercising again.

I hope you are all doing wonderful! And Happy Mother's Day (tomorrow) to all the mothers out there :-)

Feed Me!

Hey guys! How goes it? Things are good here, same old same old.

I've been finding lately (basically since I got pregnant) that I am starving ALL the time! I know it's because I'm pregnant but jeez I'm really getting sick of it. They say when you're pregnant to only eat 200 extra calories a day but I'm sorry I think I need more than that. I don't know maybe I'm not eating enough? Here's what my current eating looks like:

6am-1 piece of toast with Smart Balance spray "butter"
9am-1/2 PB & Apple Butter sandwich, Clementine
11:15am-Turkey, Boca Burger or Chicken Breast, grapes, V8, Clementine, small salad with just lettuce and tomatoes topped with low fat bleu cheese dressing
1:30pm-1/2 PB & Apple Butter sandwich, apple sauce
2:30 pm-1/2 PB & Apple Butter sandwich
After 3:30 when I get home I snack and snack and snack until I feel full. Usually on cheese and ice cream :-) Then at about 6 I eat dinner.

I think I'm going to try to get heartier snacks for the afternoon and start eating more often. I'm also making a breakfast casserole for the morning. Here's what I'm going to try to make my eating plan look like.

6am-toast, hard boiled egg white
8:30am-breakfast casserole, fruit
11am-lunch
1pm-snack
3pm-snack
6pm-dinner

I'm trying unsalted pretzels dipped in low sodium refried beans, mashed potatoes and a brown rice/corn/salsa/avocado concoction for afternoon snacks. Do you guys have any other suggestions for some snacks that might work? I looked online for ideas and a lot of people said popcorn (doesn't keep me full, too much salt), carrots in hummus (yuck and yuck), fruit and pb (I have a lot of fruit already, sick of pb), yogurt (doesn't keep me full), cottage cheese with fruit (LOVE this but holy moly does it have a lot of salt in it.) Can you guys think of anything else that might work? Sorry I know I'm being picky!


Have a wonderful Thursday!

Alive!

I'm alive!! No, really I am! Sorry I haven't been blogging regularly or even semi-regularly. I am still reading your blogs via the wonderful Google reader everyday but of course I haven't been commenting much. Again, sorry! This will get better I promise!

Things have been kind of nutty in my life. I'm still pregnant (woo hoo!) As of today I am 16 weeks along. I have another appointment in 2 weeks and then another 2 weeks after that I have my 20wk ultrasound and I'll find out what I'm having!! Crazy! I can't believe the time is flying by so quickly. I am still pretty sick. It seems to be easing up a bit, I'm not throwing up everyday more like every other ;-) I still have lots of food aversions like Subway. Oh how I miss you Subway! But currently even looking at the sign makes me gag. TMI? Sorry! Also many vegetables and pasta look pretty gross, so needless to say I am currently getting most of my veggie servings from the lovely V8 and salad. Basically lettuce and tomatoes are the only veggies I can stand the sight of. Oh and corn but umm is corn a vegetable? I heard it was a "starch". Anywho I'm trying to keep my eating just as good as it was before I got pregnant mostly for the health of the baby but also because I'm concerned about my blood pressure. It was slightly elevated before I got pregnant and I know if it gets too high it can be dangerous to both me and the baby. Right now it's pretty good. This week I'm finally finding enough energy to start exercising so I will either be walking or biking 1hr everyday starting tonight! Fun fun :-) Too bad I couldn't just use this pregnancy to vedge out and be lazy huh? Such is life..

School is going okay. Pretty crazy but I'm hanging in there. The end :-)

A new reader of mine (hey new reader!!) posted a question asking how I feel about being pregnant and gaining back some of the weight I lost. Do I feel discouraged? Well, that's a very good question. Luckily enough I have only gained about 3 pounds so far but we'll see what the scale says at my next doctor's appointment ;-) At first I was a little discouraged because I've only lost 40 pounds so far and some women have been known to gain that much during pregnancy so honestly I knew it would be possible for me to as well. Aaand ironically enough my due date is only 4 days after what would have been my 1 year anniversary on this healthiness journey. But after thinking about it and getting used to the idea of being pregnant, my outlook on it has changed. I know many people who aren't able to have children of their own so honestly I feel blessed that I am. Am I going to gain some of my weight back? Yes, I am. But just because I'm pregnant doesn't mean I'll revert back to how I used to eat and how lazy I used to be; if anything I'm eating healthier than I did before. To me this journey has been about getting healthy and yes, losing weight has been nice but my health is more important than what the scale says. If me and my baby are healthy come August then that's all that matters to me. I also look at this as kind of a challenge. I can't wait to knock people's socks off when I get into the best shape of my life AFTER my baby is born. Everyone knows the dreaded "have a baby, ruin your body" issue but for me it'll be the exact opposite. I can't wait to get down to my goal wait within the first year of my baby's life. I can't wait to take walks with my baby in it's stroller and attach a carrier to the back of a bike. I can't wait to join walking clubs with other mom's in the area and take that opportunity to meet new people. And most of all I can't wait to teach my child how to be healthy so that they don't have to go through a "healthiness journey". It will just be part of their life.

Sorry it was so lengthy but I hope it answered your question :-)

It's About Time

So. I suppose I start informing you guys about what's going on in my life huh? Well, first I'd like to apologize for being on hiatus for so long. How long has it been? Like 2 months? I don't know but to all my loyal readers I apologize.



Anyways. Around the last time I posted I was feeling blah and tired. I had no energy to go to the gym and when I did I could barely make it through a workout. My eating was getting a little off balance as well. I had no desire to eat anything. I felt bloated and gross and absolutely nothing, healthy or unhealthy, seemed appealing. I ended up gaining about 2 pounds back and I knew that I had to get back on track but I was feeling so shitty I really didn't care about going to the gym or eating healthy.



Christmas was great, very busy but absolutely wonderful. I ate okay, probably more than I should have but I didn't overstuff myself. The day after Christmas I was putting some Christmas presents together and rearranging my room. My friend Tyler, Erin, my brother and I were going to go to the mall so I decided after an hour of procrastinating that I should probably start getting ready. I headed to the bathroom, got my makeup out and suddenly felt sick. I threw up everything I had eaten that morning. (Luckily it wasn't much) That night I decided to take a pregnancy test and found out that I was 7 weeks pregnant!


Honestly, I was speechless. I still kind of am. My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years but a pregnancy was the furthest thing from our minds. Luckily he is very excited and very supportive. I am now finishing up my 10th week and I had my first doctor's appointment last Tuesday. Everything went well, I've actually lost about 3 pounds since I last weighed myself which surprised me considering the way I've been eating. They tried to hear the heartbeat but they were unable to. My doctor didn't seem too concerned as she said most people don't hear it at 10 weeks but they try anyways. We have another appointment this coming up Tuesday to try again. If they still can't hear it they will schedule an ultrasound.


This pregnancy has basically kicked the shit out of me. I'm nauseous 24/7, I throw up every morning and come 6 o'clock I'm ready for bed. I've been eating horribly as you can imagine but I'm trying to slowly reel it in. I also have not been working out at all, basically because I'm so tired I have no energy to do anything.


I was hesitant to tell you all the big news which is why I waited so long. Basically I wanted to wait until I was out of the first trimester before I said anything just incase I had a miscarriage but I decided that I would rather have a support system than not if something like that were to happen. Positive thoughts :-)


Aaaand just so you all know I have been keeping up with you guys and I'm sorry I haven't been commenting!! Can I use being exhausted as an excuse again?! Please? Anyways you guys are doing wonderfully, all of you! Keep up the great work :-)