Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Shocked, Speechless and On Top of The World

So, first things first I NEED to start blogging more. I know I say this a lot but I really do. I love when people blog daily and I need to start doing it as well. Honestly, I know it may sound crazy but I look forward to my Google reader telling me I have a new post waiting to be read. It's one of the many highlights of my day. :-)
Now with that said, I realized last night that I never updated my weight loss from last week, November 10th. Oops! Sorry. Well, last week I weighed in at 238.8. That was a 1.5 pound loss for the week and I was officially under 240. Yippee! I was very happy with that and decided that if I could keep up a 1.5 pound loss per week until the end of the year I would be a very happy camper.
Fast forward to last night, another weigh in. I don’t know about all of you but stepping on the scale is the scariest thing for me. I always take a deep breath and just do it. In the 5 seconds that it takes for the number to pop up every decision, every bite of food, every ounce of energy I put into exercise comes into my head. Did I eat okay, did I exercise enough, did those little pieces of chocolate affect what I'm about to see? In my head I told myself I would be happy with at least 237.3 because that would be right on target with the 1.5 pound loss per week. Well, last night the number finally popped up after what seemed to be years of waiting (haha) and it said 234.2. Um, what?! Wait, does that say 234? I stepped off and on probably 4 times before I believed it. I lost 4.6 pounds this week! And to make things better I passed my Christmas goal weight! I think that is why I was so shocked. I wasn't expecting to see that number for at least another 2 weeks.  My goal for Christmas was 235 and I just passed that. Woo hoo! After seeing that I decided that I was going to be ambitious and dropped my goal to 230. I think in the 5 weeks until Christmas that I can squeeze out another 4.2 pounds. I don’t think it will be easy but I think I can do it.
I realized yesterday how reserved I used to be about getting excited for something. I would never get excited about weight loss or anything like that because I always knew eventually I would trip, fall and land back where I started. I think that mentality is part of the reason I would trip. It's fun to get excited about success. It's fun to know that I will never see 235 again. It is fun to know that I am less than 35 pounds away from onederland. And if for some reason I do slip and fall and have a gain next week or the week after or 5 months down the road its not a tragedy. I will be okay, it's not the end of the world.
I want to say thank you to all of you. Everyone's blogs that I read, everyone that leaves comments, everyone that reads my blog: thank you. I know I don’t blog as often as I should and I may not be as interesting as the next person but without you I would not have made it this far. It's true that a support system is soo important. I have great fans in my friends and family but it's nice to constantly be surrounded by people who are going through the same exact thing. You are all my heroes.


  1. Awww Girl!!!! I am so happy for you!! CONGRATS!!! You are doing so amazing.. you are inspiring me!! Thank YOU too for all your lovely comments on my blog. They mean so much to me. Thank you, thank you, thank you!! =)

  2. wow so proud of you!! you are shrinking before our eyes :) i think that is a very realistic goal. I know you will easily meet that goal!

  3. I'd probably fall over if I lost that much. I can't seem to get into a groove and I'm up and down all the time. Ugg. Good for you girl! I'm sure you'll make your goal by Christmas.

  4. The thing I love about everyday blogging is that it keeps this weight-loss journey bubbling on the front burner for me. Even if I'm posting something silly or something off-topic, my focus is on what I'm doing.

    Keep up the great work!

  5. Congratulations!! That's wonderful!

  6. Awesome awesome awesome!! Great job!!!

  7. Congrats! I too look foward to reading blogs, because some are good times some are not so good times, but in the end we are all there to support each other and offer advice and guidence when we can.
    You are doing fantastic, keep up the great work, we are all here to support you and follow you as you make your dreams come true!

  8. I can't proffess to know your journey, I've never lived it and never had to, but I understand it and I know what it means to you.

    I have never failed to put belief or store in people, that I knew had failed.

    I know I've done something good by believing in you. You had a difficult start to this, but you're certainly doing it well.

    Whatever you do do in the future, it won't always workout, or feel perfect, but I think you are developing a sense of self comforting.

    You are learning not to be hard and to be forgiving. Being human is a great thing, when it's done well. We're not a step too far in evolution, not quite the screw up species, some of our own would make out, so it's a.o.k to be human and I think you're slowly realising this.

    You're doing great, so keep on keep on, WELL DONE and keep showing people that superb smile.

    You CAN be proud of yourself, and you're definitely worth every second of good living.

    Take care and best wishes.

    :-) :-).


  9. What a sweet post!!! Way to go on your great loss this week. You are doing terrific.