Thursday, May 7, 2009


So I forgot how amazing it feels to eat healthy and be "satisfied". I think I said this in my last post but I feel sooo wonderful just having my stomach be satisfied instead of overstuffed, bloated and sick. Ahh this is the life…

Eating yesterday was good. I've gotten my body used to the less calories and all it took was 1 day of hunger pangs and I haven't had any again so I'm very happy about that. I actually forgot to eat my first snack today until 10 am (I usually eat it at 9:30) because I wasn't hungry lol. Part of me wanted to not eat because of that, but I knew that if I didn't eat I would become hungry and for me that is one of the worst feelings in the world. I get an upset stomach, dizzy and a horrible headache. I think that is one of the reasons I overeat so much. Whenever I get the hunger feeling I want to shovel food in my mouth to ensure that it goes away before the headache starts and I'm miserable. Hmm I guess I never thought of that before. Eating healthy has been relatively easy. Last night I made turkey stuffed portabella mushrooms to take to work for the next couple days so I'm excited about that. I can't wait to get some fresh asparagus on Saturday at the farmers market, yummy :-) I think the thing I've had to adjust to the most with this new eating is not eating when I get home from work. Before I would get home and shovel food in my face as I watched the Tyra Banks Show (<--LOVE that show). Now I come home and don't eat anything until 4:30 when I have a small snack. It's been a big adjustment and I still find myself getting up at commercial breaks and walking to the fridge but then I just turn around and walk right back to the couch without grabbing anything. I'm very proud that I can do that and it makes me feel good and confident that I can overcome this eating battle once and for all. I must confess, I did have a chocolate cupcake today at work. Hmm I'm not upset about it though. If I want something I'm going to have it, I just need to teach myself that not everything I eat can be a chocolate cupcake and that when I want to have a treat I can but I can't go on a total binge. One chocolate cupcake was nice to satisfy my chocolate craving and now I'm probably good for another week or maybe even longer. I've learned that the harder I am on myself about what I eat the faster I go back to junk food that only make me feel sick afterwards. Healthy is the way to go, eating 6 times a day with 3 snacks and 3 meals and a little treat here and there. That's what is working for me and I'm sticking to it.

What's not working, however, is exercise. I think that starting a new way of eating and starting to exercise all in the same week was not something I could handle. I think once I make it through my first week of eating healthy and counting calories I will be ready to tackle my exercise demons. Next week I'm starting and I'm not giving my self a choice anymore. No more free passes because I'm only hurting myself. Not exercising is in no way benefiting me at all. Once I get that through my head I'll be golden. Wish me luck!


Happy Thursday!!

(almost Friday!!)

1 comment:

  1. I really your attitude to not giving yourself a hard time for things. I said that recently, about how that could just hurt you long-term, and you have done exactly the right thing.

    I do think perhaps if you are trying to get the eating and exercsie on track, to the point where one might harm the other, it is better to delay one, until you've gotten the other thing in control, then you'll have more chance of getting the second thing in control too.

    At the moment, you're clearly doing great. Your efforts in doing this, from a mental and emotional standpoint, are really good, you've gotten both of those things in control, so you're in control, and you should definitely be proud of what you've done in a short space of time.

    Keep up the hard word, and very best wishes.

    :-) :-).