Stop Drinking Haterade...

Happy Hump Day everyone! I love four day weeks :-)

This is another post that is going to need a disclaimer: Warning, the post you are about to read has a lot of "venting" in it. If you do not wish to read someone complain about things that probably don't even really matter, please turn away now or forever hold your peace.

Before I get into what the disclaimer was about I'll update you on yesterday. Food was good. Same old chicken, same old veggies, same old everything. Same old everything I LOVE :-) I think finding food that I can stand eating almost everyday has really helped make the eating part of the journey a lot easier than I thought it would be. I love the fruits and veggies I eat and I don't try to force myself to eat ones I know I don't like. I love greek yogurt and laughing cow cheese and V8. It's all part of who I am now. I also switch up the marinade I'm using everytime I grill new chicken just to keep things interesting. It's fun and I'm enjoying it.

Exercise was good yesterday. Did the 4 mile walk with my step-mom and then hit up the gym. Yesterday's focus was arms with light hamstrings and upper abs/obliques. I finished it off with 40 minutes on the stationary bike. I need to remember to add in a 10 minute warmup on the treadmill before I weight train. I have a doctor's appt. right after work tomorrow and tonight I am going to see my boyfriend so I won't have a chance to work out before I see my doc. I would love to impress my doctor with how well I've done since I last saw her 6 weeks ago and I really wanted to know what my weight was looking like before I see her. Since tomorrow is my official weigh in day I decided to weigh myself last night just to see if my weekend choices affected me as much as I thought they did. Well, happily as of last night I was down another 2.2 pounds! All I'm hoping for now is to not gain anything before I see her tomorrow. I would love to lose another pound or so but quite frankly I'm not expecting that because I won't have the chance to work out tonight. The 2.2 pounds has me at 11.2 pounds lost total so far, so I am very very happy with that!

So now for the fun stuff. My venting. I'll try to keep it short I just need to get if off of my chest. So I got this new temporary part time job on the weekends for a little extra money. The job only lasts 4-8wks but right now I'll take whatever I can get. Basically I'll be working at a cheese factory on the candy and giftwrapping production lines. I think it'll be fun but of course my "best friend" had to bring my mood down. I told her the pay is $8/hr and $12/hr for any overtime. She proceeded to argue with me about the fact that I won't get any overtime because I'm only working 16 hours. I nicely told her that my boss said anything out of my normal schedule of 16 hours would be considered overtime. After she argued some more I decided that this wasn't worth the fight and just let it go. The hours of the job are Saturday and Sunday 6am-2pm. After I told her this she told me that I was always going to be tired and that it was going to suck. I told her that since I get off so early I could easily take a nap when I get home and I reminded her that at one point I worked a full time job during the day, had a 7 day a week paper route from 3am-7am and went to school full time so I didn’t think this would be a problem. She then went on to argue that I wasn’t going to have a life anymore. After I told her I thought it would be a fun job, she told me its sounds to her like it will be monotonous and boring. It seems like everytime I said something positive she countered with a negative. I don’t know, maybe I took it for more than it was worth but it just bothered me. I don’t understand why she can't just be happy for me or at least pretend to be.

Within the past month or so I've become a lot more independent of her and everyone else. I've started doing things for me and doing things that I love. I took the bellydancing class by myself because no one would do it with me and I wasn’t going to wait around when its something I've been wanting to do forever. That’s definitely not something I would have done a couple months ago. I don’t know what gave me the courage to branch out and do things on my own but I'm glad I have. I think that sometimes when you're having success and someone else isn't they get hostile towards you. Whether it's because they are mad at you or at themselves, I'm not sure. There's other times that people are happy for you and support you. I just want to say thank you to everyone who has been so kind to me here and left me the support I needed. Don’t get me wrong, I have many people in my day to day life that have been more than supportive but it seems like lately the people I want to care the most are the ones that care the least.